HiMyNameIs

2 THINGS!

Two Names You Go By
1. Meg
2. Huntress

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Irish
2. Polish

Two Things That Scare You
1. Bugs
2. Getting old

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Laughing with my friends (poo bags)
2. Music

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. my funny girl sweatshirt
2. jeans

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (at the moment)
1. Pink Floyd
2. Hendrix

Two Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
1. Honesty
2. Laughter

Two Truths
1. I saw a sink explode last monday
2. I hate knowing i was decived

Two Physical Things that Appeal to You
1. Jaw bone
2. smile

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. chilling w/ my buds
2. playing games online (im addicted)

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. to go to more concerts/shows
2. hang out w/ ben again!

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. Hawaii
2. Irealand

Two Ways that you are stereotypically a guy/girl
1. I like cleaning when i am mad (it helps me not punch someone)
2. I get emotional when it come to my BFF's getting hurt

Two past jobs
1. Build a Bear
2. newspaper girl (tee hee)

Two of your favorite TV shows
1. Drawn together
2. South PArk

Two websites you visit the most online
1. TuckerMax.com
2. HOmestarrunner.com

Two people you saw last
1. Jess
2. one of my residents asking me a question

so ali "tagged" me for this...

Five details about me:
[+] im from bUfFAl0! <~~~ good one Ali
[+] im an RA
[+] I love reading
[+] drawn together is one of the best shows ever
[+] im a strait alli in Auburn's gay-strait alliance.

Five details about my appearance right now:
[+] I cut my hair this short myself
[+] i have my converse shoes on
[+] my hemp bracelet jess made me is almost falling off
[+] i have the words "Meg is my hero" writen on my arm (thank you for it jess =)) )
[+] my clothes smell like smoke from the Tyler Read concert ( flippin awesome time!!)

Five favorite movies
[+] Party Monster
[+] Empire Records
[+] Bill and Ted's excellent adventure
[+] Red Dragon
[+] Garden State and im putting another one 2 - Saved

Five things that make me happy
[+] seeing my family
[+] going to sleep cuddled up next to my dog
[+] music
[+] my BFF's
[+] laughter

Five things that impress me
[+] people who try hard to stay afloat
[+] honesty
[+] knowedge of whats going on in the world w/out being stuck up about it
[+] stars
[+] talent and intellegence

Five things that do not impress me
[+] drunk/stoned frat boys
[+] liers
[+] braggers
[+] selfishness
[+] stupidity

Five people I am "tagging" to do this survey
[+] other
[+] people
[+] who
[+] are
[+] awake

HAPPY NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY EVERYONE!

Every night my heart breaks apart all over again.

Going through each day with out a single word is killing me.

a simple "hi" would be nice...instead of this...unknowing.

I cant describe the pain, i can not describe the hell that parts of my life has become.

I cant...

I cant do this.

GOD! I HATE THIS

thats bullshit.

umm..anywho Ben is back in auburn after his week from hell in Foot-of-the-Mountin-Alabama. Liz (who i have yet to see) and Michelle are finishing their stupid sorority shit, Aaron came back a day of two ago, jess is moving back later today (betweek 12 and 4 pm). Im doing well, pretty well considering. Its amazing what numbing yourself can do. Yoshi and Robby and everyone else have been slowly moving back to auburn.

Soon, all will be relitively right in the world. All of my AU best friends will be home here with me. I missed you guys more then anything.

I guess i should like make a real update or something...

my residents seem cool so far, and ive already started seriously bonding with a few of them..rock on i love friends.

i dunt know what im going to do anymore...sometimes i feel so angry, the sad, then just...empty you know? like something bad will happen to me (the past 2 weeks have been strait from hell...thanks Satan, love you too buddy) and recently i have just been like "ehhh...whatev..::shrugs::" its like, im numb to whats happened. yeah, good way to be meg.

Classes start wed and im really mad. I need to be able to laugh and smile and feel loved, especially now...and hanging out w/ michelle and ben and mike and austin have let me do/feel those things again. Erica has been calling me all the time =)) and i miss seeing and hanging out w/ her..lmao...as well as anna and Jess, who call me all the time too. Chris keeps wanting to chill and i keep forgeting (cuase i suck like that ). Damn i have the best friends in the world and I LOVE THEM ALL!

today was fun. I wouldnt pass up doing the laundry with Whitney, ausitn and ben for anything. And i wouldnt trade going on a "michelle resuce mission" and hiding from the po-po with michelle ben and austin (cuase austin and i were in the back of the pick up).

basically what i am trying to get at is that i love all of my friends. I am grateful for the new tight friendships that i am making and especially for the insanely strong bonds that i have with the friends i already have. All of them have gone above and beyond the calls of friendship. thank you. You guys have helped me more then you know, and i wish that i could somehow repay you for everything you do.

one day...i will

::insert stuff about being sad and hurt and upset and pissed here::

umm...so im back at school, having and ok time, then a shitty time, then an ok time then a shitty time. Such is life. Michelle is comming to play later yey for michelle and friends!

Aladdin is a good movie.

Ali bought the "special edition 2 disk set" for 10 bucks.

and we watched it and sang the songs. I missed how happy OLD disney movies make you feel.

Ali and i are friends. and i like the way that makes me feel too.

my aunt is in london with my little cousin right now visiting her best friend Mimi.

i was awoken by my uncle at 8am calling to let us know they are all safe.

safe from what i wondered.

from the bombings he said.

so i turned on the news.

i just found out one of my friends from school died in a car wreck about a week ago.

i feel weird about it.

this is specifically for jess

 

( glasses - taken by ali )

I fukking hate the world that we live in. I hate the world that exisits outside of my head. I hate the world that i will one day bring huckleberry into. I hate the world where the nice guys finish last and the best people that god ever made get hurt.I FUKKING CANT BELIEVE THIS SHIT!! what kind of people are we living next too? shit..i hope everything turns out ok...

and i thought i had a bad day

changed the way my journal looks. So comment me up.
my sister is cool cuase now we have more stuff in common.
we tight.
KP4e
I realize how dumb these journal thingies are. oh well.
Id like to give a shout out to my auditionign sis ali.
and to my jess
and other peeps who read this thing aka no one.
so holla to no-one
peace

now i know ppl dunt like reading lyrics. bu these mean alot to me. 'tis why they are inhere now plz. enjoy. you are welcome to sing along as you read them

Blackbird by the beatles:

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.

Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.




skating away on the ice of a New Day - Jethro "The Shit" Tull (i love them!)


Meanwhile back in the year One --- when you belonged to no-one ---
you didn't stand a chance son, if your pants were undone.
`Cause you were bred for humanity and sold to society ---
one day you'll wake up in the Present Day ---
a million generations removed from expectations
of being who you really want to be.

Skating away ---
skating away ---
skating away on the thin ice of the New Day.

So as you push off from the shore,
won't you turn your head once more --- and make your peace with everyone?
For those who choose to stay,
will live just one more day ---
to do the things they should have done.
And as you cross the wilderness, spinning in your emptiness:
you feel you have to pray.
Looking for a sign
that the Universal Mind (!) has written you into the Passion Play.

Skating away on the thin ice of the New Day.

And as you cross the circle line, the ice-wall creaks behind ---
you're a rabbit on the run.
And the silver splinters fly in the corner of your eye ---
shining in the setting sun.
Well, do you ever get the feeling that the story's
too damn real and in the present tense?
Or that everybody's on the stage, and it seems like
you're the only person sitting in the audience?

Skating away on the thin ice of the New Day.

i want to write but i dunt know what about.

ive been thinking

i hate my job

i really miss Build-A-Bear...wow

i never thought that i would actually say that i

miss the work at BAB. I will forever and always miss the people...but the work?

its only for 6 weeks kid, only for 6 weeks

i have to keep telling myself that

i really need to listen to music more often.

i got my hair cut and its super short and i love it

There are certain things that are graiting on my nerves.

Im sure if i listed them all i would offend someone

but i dunt care...and i never will.

im just too lazy right now. Im sure soon enough something will snap and i will rant about it, so stay tuned.

umm... so thats about it

oh and i love adam =))

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min wage in:

IL - $6.50

NY -$6.00

AL- $5.15

remind me next time that i want a part time job to go stay in IL w/ adam for the summer

wow i have to be the worlds biggest loser.

yes you heard me.

I have an exam i less then 7 hours and its 1:31 am

I crashed after my exams today

to get up and work 5-9

then i waited

and waited

11 o'clock came around and i went "oh shit" so i went to the library w/ jess

they kicked us out.

Apparently it closes at 12am on Fridays. I got a solid like 20 min of study between me singing a song i made up called "the pussy man" to jess and just other tom-foolery.

So i tried going to sleep when i got back

Obviously that didnt work.

Sleepy music kept me up instead of put me to sleep.

I actually started dancing to one of the songs in my bed.

convently, jess cant sleep either (weird how that happens)

so we got up.

and ordered Jimmy John's. God booger bless them for staying open til 3.

Im waiting for my food.

I got a #7 also known as a Gourmet Smoker Ham Club w/ a deli pickle

Jess got a #15 AKA the club tuna minus like everything except the tuna.

we are fat kids.

oh btb, the dude that playes Brian on QAF is strait...=))

This is fro erica, thank you for making me laugh

Via: David Rees
Little Golden Childrens Books That Never Made It
You Are Different and That's Bad
The Boy Who Died From Eating All His Vegetables
Dad's New Wife Robert
Fun Four-letter Words to Know and Share
Hammers, Screwdrivers and Scissors: An I-Can-Do-It Book
The Kids' Guide to Hitchhiking
Kathy Was So Bad Her Mom Stopped Loving Her
Curious George and the High-Voltage Fence
All Cats Go to Hell
The Little Sissy Who Snitched
Some Kittens Can Fly
That's It, I'm Putting You Up for Adoption
Grandpa Gets a Casket
The Magic World Inside the Abandoned Refrigerator
Garfield Gets Feline Leukemia
The Pop-Up Book of Human Anatomy
Strangers Have the Best Candy
Whining, Kicking and Crying to Get Your Way
You Were an Accident
Things Rich Kids Have, But You Never Will
Pop! Goes The Hamster...And Other Great Microwave Games
The Man in the Moon Is Actually Satan
Your Nightmares Are Real
Where Would You Like to Be Buried?
Eggs, Toilet Paper, and Your School
Why Can't Mr. Fork and Ms. Electrical Outlet Be Friends?
Places Where Mommy and Daddy Hide Neat Things
Daddy Drinks Because You Cry

the mail lady is up to no good again.

goddamn you lady! didnt you already cuase me enough heartache and grief in the past year? I thought we were alright again! I thought we made up! but nooo...you have to be with holding a letter again. a letter with MY name on it. Damn woman, enough is enough. I know that we are eternal enemies, and that, when i am grown with my own children you will still be around, keeping mail from my family, taunting me, laughing in my face, until i kick your ass, but please please PLEASE give me this letter ( one that adam sent over TWO weeks ago)

I walked in the mailroom today figuring, hey im having a pretty great day so far(technology is being less of a bitch), perhaps the mail lady will be nice for once. I put on my best act to be casual as i slauntered up to my mailbox. I made sure that my audience (the invisible ones in my head and the one person actually in the room) could see my dramatic bend to lean down and look in the little window to see my letter i knew would be there.

MOTHER FUKKER

I screamed these words in my head, but they came out just under my breath to the rest of the world. I smashed my fist against the mail box and flicked it off. I guess you win again today mail lady...but one day...you will be mine.

I love you adam, i hope that your day is kicking ass!

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Edit at 12:04 pm

what's that bitches?!?! yeah that's right the backstreet boys are back. I just watched my boys in their new music video called "Incomplete" and its HAWT! and kevin is looking good if i do say so myself ^.~

ok that is something that i dont really tell people. when you think of meg and music you think "rock" you think "metal" you think "hard core" not "backstreet boys". But im not afraid to admit it, i am a closet BSB fan ( but not the crazy kind, i only wanted to marry one of them). So kill me.

The relationship between the boys and me has been, well, non existant over the past 5 years. In fact i died when i realized that they were crap. Yes they are really crappy, i know that they are crappy, but i cant help it. Our relationship runs too deep...i must support them...in all of there endevors...even if they fail...even if they are losers...

everyone go check out the new song...